I’m sorry if I was ever the worst version of myself around y’all after not going to sleep the night before.

I mean, what a silly reason for feeling bad and being awful, “Dad’s just tired. Leave him alone.”

This is especially true because I do it to myself, right?

I’m not staying up all hours of the night because of some emergency…

I’m staying up for “downtime.”

So that I can have time “alone” in a silent house after everyone else is asleep.

I think I am learning that this is a mistake.

When you are burnt out, it’s not free time that is needed, it’s rest.

Specifically, sleep.

So I will try 8 hours tonight, 10 PM – 6 AM.

Maybe I’ll keep you posted.

Read: Here’s Your Secret To Success: Go The F*ck To Sleep

The passage that jumped out to me:

It almost doesn’t matter what the problem is, the solution is often a consistent routine. Tell a sleep expert you’re not sleeping well, that’s what they’ll suggest. Tell a psychiatrist you’ve been feeling anxious, that’s what their first question will be. Tell a productivity guru your work output isn’t where you want it, that’s where they’ll start. Tell a dog trainer your dog is acting up, that’s where they’ll start. Tell a strength trainer you want to get stronger, tell an author you want to get better at writing, tell the Stoics you want to round out the day in a calmer, more tranquil state—a consistent routine will be the answer.

I love you.

-Dad

T, it took you one day to learn how to sleep in. 🤣

One day!

I mean, what in the world?

One day. 24 hours!

Since we laid you in your crib the first time, you have yelled across the house for us when you wanted to get up.

You hear the house begin to stir. You wake up. And then you yell at us to come and get you.

We have virtually NEVER had to come in and get you up.

But we moved you from your crib to a double bed and in one night you stopped this charade.

If I am being honest, we even had a bit of trouble prying you out of bed in time for school…

It’s like you suddenly realized the bed is warm and comfortable and that you prefer to sleep in – if given the choice.

Honestly, me too.

I love you.

-Dad

Welp, we took y’alls crib down this weekend.

It was time and needed to be done, but it was still not easy.

All of you spent 3-4 years in that thing.

It’s been up for over 11 years and still had H’s teeth marks on it.

What made it a little easier was that we waited so long.

I mean, if T is throwing sarcasm and talking about learning what decimals are at the Montessori school…

I don’t know – maybe it’s time she didn’t sleep in a crib. 🤣

Anyway, the move was a hit.

H has a larger bed and K and T got to rearrange their room to their liking.

Maybe we will have a different house one day.

But this one holds my favorite memories.

I love you.

-Dad